I am reading Eckhart Tolle’s new book and it sparked me thinking about the role of the ‘ego’ and the damage it causes. When I read his stuff, I have to smile - not an ‘I’m so much in control and am way ahead of you’ type of smile but more of ‘Man, I can be a dumbass sometimes’ type of smile. My ego can be big and to be fair, it pretty much rules the show. Not only that, my ego causes me grief and I am learning to recognize when my ego stands in the way of good decisions. Obviously, I have work to do.
His writing, though, has also made me think about ego and running. Do you need to have a huge ego to win? Do you need to have an ego to compete? I’ve come to the conclusion that you don’t in either situation. In fact, during an event elite athletes are so ‘in the zone’ when they are competing well that ego doesn’t seem to play much of a part, if at all. What do you need? I think you need quiet confidence with a deep knowing that you are prepared, flexibility to deal with the inevitable surprises that occur and a willingness to see the run through to the end, regardless of the outcome.
On getting some running perspective, here are a few things/questions we all need to come to terms with;
1. Even if you could run a 2:30 marathon, there would be 1000’s in the world faster than you.
2. Even if I won a single race, you could make the argument that some other faster runner would have won, if they were in the same race. There is always a faster runner.
3. Even Jon Brown, arguably Canada’s fastest marathoner, was 4th in the world, twice at the Oly’s.
4. For Ultra runners: Do you remember who won Western States last year? I don’t.
5. Do you have an ‘I love me’ part of your home where you display your medals, trophy’s, etc?
So who are you (me) trying to impress? Does our running define us? Who cares?
If this is you (and it’s certainly me), maybe it’s time to look again at the ‘Why do you run?’ question.